As far back as my memories of my childhood goes i was mostly brought up by my mother. My mum used to work part-time and so I was moved around from one to the other friends of my parents during that time when my mum worked. The other half of the day, my mum was there. My dad was mostly busy working shifts as a male nurse in the emergency room at the local city hospital. Therefore it was mostly just me and my mum. But my dad made always sure that when he was off work, that we did things together. even if it was just sleeping. You know he on the couch on his back and little me was sleeping sprawled on his belly.
That was how it was before i was old enough to go to the kindergarden. At that time my mum used to walk me to the kindergarden and then went strait to work. Kinder garden as far as i can remember was my fun times. lots to do and lots of things to discover and peers to play with. I even liked PT hours then, we mostly played dodgeball, which was my fav game to play.
Some time later, when I went to school, I was that average lil cute kid that everyone wanted. Till one day my parents took me to the doctors to get my eyes checked. I ended up with some very geeky glasses. Some of my classmates thought its cool and the others started calling me names. That plus the fact of my families religion where we went to church every Saturday morning made things just a bit more complicated for me at school! Back then school was from Monday to Friday Full day with breaks and all. On Saturdays it was just from 8 am till Noon. The other classmates got very jealous about it that i wasn’t at school on Saturdays, but what they didn’t saw was, that i had to catch up on the subjects they had on Saturday Nights.
During my whole time in School, I was being Bullied, Mobbed, got into lots of fistfights which all i haven’t started. I just stood up for myself and defended myself from the onslaught they sent my way. Hence i was the UNDERDOG, a LONER and always chosen last.
Although i do remember my bench buddy at school very well. He’s a GINGER, he always talked with me because he wanted to. Turns out, a couple of years later and all grown up into Adulthood we are both GAY 😛 and we’re friends.
Oh and big thanks to 3 of my teachers for seeing what was hidden in me the Underdog. My Biology, English and my German/Library Teachers, thanks again for all the good work you did and all the things you taught us. 🙂
In my teens it was very hard, lots of struggles to find your way as a 16 year old in the world of the Adults. There was no one back then who guided me or took me under his wings to lead the way and show me all my possibilities and options. All you’ve got back then was the usual suggestions from your parents like try this or try that. But no real guidance as the younger generation these days get.
Rebellious as i was or as i still am, who knows 😛 I got into a word fight and very big disagreement with the pastor and the church and the religion of my family. They where trying to put us into a Protective Bubble with no contact to people who don’t have the same faith as we did. So i left the charade and the religion behind me and concentrated on the real world.
Back in the real world, i identified myself as a guy who has some religious beliefs and identified himself as a bisexual. Hence i had 2 girlfriends. We dated a lot, talked and kissed a lot and did the usual things couples do. But it never came to sex, we always agreed to wait and we never talked about it again.
Somehow one thing led to the other and I ended up with an apprenticeship and a shortcut in business school. Got my degree within 2 years instead of the usual 3.5 years.
And that is all i say for now about my profession 🙂
That was a little glimpse into my past. There will be a few more segments about my past in the upcoming weeks.
My conclusion is…
… I don’t want pity. Go out and share “Love, Valour and Compassion” which for the record is one of my favourite movies.